Courage...

I wish I had courage. I wish I had the courage to do whatever I want. I wish I had the courage to tell anyone any thing I want. I wish I had the courage to have courage.
Sometimes, it gets so tough to look beyond what you already know. You don't want to find something new that will make you suffer. However, that's what you need to do. You need to go further than what you've reached so far.

Fear is the heart of love - this is in a song. But it's also the heart of failure, the heart of anguish and lack of happiness. If I were brave, I'd just say everything to everybody's face and not be a hypocrite as everybody is. I wish I had the courage to find out what they think, to fight off my fears. But how would I do that? I'm afraid...

If only I knew what's in their hearts, in their souls and in their minds. If I were brave, I'd ask them, but I don't think I can. Someday I'll find out what it is that horrifies me so much - that is, if I have the guts to do so.

The only thing I'm not afraid of is sleepong because when I sleep I have peace. I know, I know... but even my sleep has been troubled lately.

If only I had courage. If only I weren't afraid.

Life is a box of chocolate...

Still in the Forrest Gump mood, it is a nice thing to think about this sentence that he says some times during the movie: life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get. And that is so true! Whenever you open a box of chocolate, you always find something new and delightful you want and there's also that candy you despise. But guess what... in life that's what we'll get: desireable and despising experiences.

But if you think about it, it's all chocolate, no matter how sweet or bitter it tastes. The same is true of life... since it's all chocolate, we ought to try every possibility it brings us and enjoy it no matter how bitter it might be in the future...

Easy for you to say, John, you might be saying now, dear reader, however, this is just something that I just thought of while writing this... because since life is gonna bring us great and horrible situations and there's no way we could escape it, all we have to do is live through it and appreciate the sweetness of what nice things this box of chocolate brings us, besides learning to avoid the bitter candies through the lessons we learn during life: you never know which one is going to be bitter until you open it, but after you open it for the first time, you'll know what to stave off next time...

Forrest Gump

I believe this movie is one of the most beautiful ones I've ever seen in my entire life. It's so deep and full of things to appreciate that when it was over, I was overwhelmed by its meaningful messages. It is incredible how life can be so beautiful, especially in the eyes of a simple person, who does not have ambitions ans whose most important objective is to be with the one he loves.

Forrest Gump is one of those movies that make you think about your life and about everything you've done with so far. It shows us that worrying about life and where it will takes is useless and it makes you believe that God does have a plan for each one of us, and not matter what we do, we will end up fulfilling it.

Gump is a simple man, not a smart one - as he says - but he has something that counts far more than intelligence: his heart. And by it, he does everything that takes him to the highest of life, making him meet very important people, such as the president of the USA and John Lennon.

He does not really care what people will say about him, although he really hates being called stupid, but, as he well says, stupid is as stupid does.

With amazing scenes and touching lines, this movie is sure to be considered one of a kind... and Tom Hanks is now definetely on my list of best actors. I'm delighted...

Waiting...

Isn't it awful when you have to wait? There's this big thing you want to happen, but you have to wait until it comes... does that kill me! Gosh, being anxious is juts horrible and pain-inflicting! But here's what I have to do: wait. Just four letters give me the creeps... WAIT

I personally think about what might happen in the future and then start suffering about it. I don't really know what the sentence "I'll cross that bridge when I come to it" means because if have reasons to believe the future will be cloudy and dark, I begin to freak out.

That has not being good for me and I have experienced really bad things because of my anxiety. I wish I knew how to get out of this situation, but it's so hard...

If you're reading this and identify yourself, I hope this feeling of knowing it does not only happen to you helps you.

Believe me... waiting is harder than anything in the world.

Dear reader (if there is any...)

It's been a while since I last posted here. Two months! But now I'm back on track... that is, am I going to post anything here for the next two months? Who knows? So it's your duty to keep visiting this blog to check it out.
So, speaking of uncertainty, I think this is a nice topic to write.

What's certain about life? There is just one thing we can be certain of: death. Still, you're never certain when you will meet it.
You get up in the morning and you do have plans. But who told you will make it to the end of the day to see them fulfilled?
Let's say it's 7 in the morning. You get up, go to the kitchen and have breakfast. Then you head out to work and stay there all day. When you leave, you get on the bus, a guy holding a gun gets on the bus and...
Well, what happens? You don't know. Maybe that's when you meet your maker.
Nothing is certain... so although you have plans, despite the fact you think you have control over everything, be certain that your not certain about anything.

It is funny to see how men and women relate to each other. It is obviously something natural because men were made for women and women were made for men. However, there is a lot of mystery surrounding this so called natural process. Men complain about women and women complain about men, but they end up needing each other and complementing each other.
Go out on the street and ask someone what they think about the opposite sex and you will see that most of the replies will be related to understanding what men and women think. Knowing what is going on in the head of person of the opposite sex might just be something like knowing the right number to win the lottery.
Speaking as a man, I can say that women are just incomprehensible. Most of them seem to talk in a way and act completely differently. They are not coherent at all and since their most tender age they start showing signs of how unable to understand they will be.
Women also have the ability to be mysterious. It is almost never possible to figure out what they are thinking or what is crossing their minds. Usually the guy is very confident he understands what is going on in a certain situation with a girl, but when he sees it he’s been lost for a long time. And when he asks the girl what she thinks about it all she smirks and loses him even more.
But I know that this is a man’s opinion about it all. In recent conversations with some girls, they told me they also think men are complex and not easy to figure out. They say we think too much about sex and that we do not care about their feelings. They say they want to find the right man, a decent guy they can marry and start a family with and that it is really complicated to find.
I know that I have talked more about women than men, but I can’t exclude myself from the universe of men trying to understand women. But there is a reason why men and women try to figure each other out and it is because they were made for each other. And need each other, so they try to find an easy way to relate to one another. The Bottom line is both men and women haven’t been made to be understood, but to live with each other the way they are. And that is especially applied to women – the ones I complained so much about – since they have to be loved and not necessarily understood.

How weird it is when all you know comes apart at the seams. It is something we ought to be prepared for because we never know when it's going to happen. Maybe never, but maybe some day you will get up and find out that all you'd believed till the day before was a lie. What now?
It is not easy to face a new day when there's nothing firm you can hold on to and it is not easy to feel motivated when everything around seems to make no sense at all. Now's when you must take a break and think. The problem is that the world we live in will probably not give you this break because you never know when a new crisis is coming - and probably not when your vacation is scheduled.