Courage...

I wish I had courage. I wish I had the courage to do whatever I want. I wish I had the courage to tell anyone any thing I want. I wish I had the courage to have courage.
Sometimes, it gets so tough to look beyond what you already know. You don't want to find something new that will make you suffer. However, that's what you need to do. You need to go further than what you've reached so far.

Fear is the heart of love - this is in a song. But it's also the heart of failure, the heart of anguish and lack of happiness. If I were brave, I'd just say everything to everybody's face and not be a hypocrite as everybody is. I wish I had the courage to find out what they think, to fight off my fears. But how would I do that? I'm afraid...

If only I knew what's in their hearts, in their souls and in their minds. If I were brave, I'd ask them, but I don't think I can. Someday I'll find out what it is that horrifies me so much - that is, if I have the guts to do so.

The only thing I'm not afraid of is sleepong because when I sleep I have peace. I know, I know... but even my sleep has been troubled lately.

If only I had courage. If only I weren't afraid.

Life is a box of chocolate...

Still in the Forrest Gump mood, it is a nice thing to think about this sentence that he says some times during the movie: life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get. And that is so true! Whenever you open a box of chocolate, you always find something new and delightful you want and there's also that candy you despise. But guess what... in life that's what we'll get: desireable and despising experiences.

But if you think about it, it's all chocolate, no matter how sweet or bitter it tastes. The same is true of life... since it's all chocolate, we ought to try every possibility it brings us and enjoy it no matter how bitter it might be in the future...

Easy for you to say, John, you might be saying now, dear reader, however, this is just something that I just thought of while writing this... because since life is gonna bring us great and horrible situations and there's no way we could escape it, all we have to do is live through it and appreciate the sweetness of what nice things this box of chocolate brings us, besides learning to avoid the bitter candies through the lessons we learn during life: you never know which one is going to be bitter until you open it, but after you open it for the first time, you'll know what to stave off next time...

Forrest Gump

I believe this movie is one of the most beautiful ones I've ever seen in my entire life. It's so deep and full of things to appreciate that when it was over, I was overwhelmed by its meaningful messages. It is incredible how life can be so beautiful, especially in the eyes of a simple person, who does not have ambitions ans whose most important objective is to be with the one he loves.

Forrest Gump is one of those movies that make you think about your life and about everything you've done with so far. It shows us that worrying about life and where it will takes is useless and it makes you believe that God does have a plan for each one of us, and not matter what we do, we will end up fulfilling it.

Gump is a simple man, not a smart one - as he says - but he has something that counts far more than intelligence: his heart. And by it, he does everything that takes him to the highest of life, making him meet very important people, such as the president of the USA and John Lennon.

He does not really care what people will say about him, although he really hates being called stupid, but, as he well says, stupid is as stupid does.

With amazing scenes and touching lines, this movie is sure to be considered one of a kind... and Tom Hanks is now definetely on my list of best actors. I'm delighted...

Waiting...

Isn't it awful when you have to wait? There's this big thing you want to happen, but you have to wait until it comes... does that kill me! Gosh, being anxious is juts horrible and pain-inflicting! But here's what I have to do: wait. Just four letters give me the creeps... WAIT

I personally think about what might happen in the future and then start suffering about it. I don't really know what the sentence "I'll cross that bridge when I come to it" means because if have reasons to believe the future will be cloudy and dark, I begin to freak out.

That has not being good for me and I have experienced really bad things because of my anxiety. I wish I knew how to get out of this situation, but it's so hard...

If you're reading this and identify yourself, I hope this feeling of knowing it does not only happen to you helps you.

Believe me... waiting is harder than anything in the world.